The Preperation For the Play.

Well, for the next three and a half weeks, Landon and I will be spending a lot of time together. The reason why is, three days ago I asked him to do me a big favor since I had done him one. That favor was for him to be the lead role in the play besides the angel; and he agreed to it! I was so joyous and thankful for him accepting it. I knew he would, he knew I did him the most blessing thing by saving him from getting any serious injuries. I believe that he'll do an excellent job with the play. Plus, he'll help out a lot with carrying the heavy, old wood for the play. He walks me home. That is probably the best part of my day. Great, I hope I'm not starting to like him. Anyways, I'm working so hard to memorize all of the lines by heart, so then I wouldn't forget any when I perform.
To be continued..


Continuum..
Well, it's been two weeks! That means in about a week the play is going to be performed! I am extremely anxious and excited to be in it. Landon and I had a plan to perform the play to the orphans as a warm up before the real thing. However, when we were at the orphanage discussing it to the boss and he told us something we should have realised in the beginning. That is the story of the play is about the father finding his daughter, etc. and that would hurt the children because they don't have parents, and can't relate to the story. In the end, we didn't do it because it was a bad idea. However, we brushed it off and continued rehearsing. Now, we are getting all the costumes and stage equipment ready for the first major dress rehearsal. I'm ready to do it, and I know it.

Today went kind of wrong for Landon because when we were waking home he completely yelled at me and confessed what he's been feeling inside this whole time. For example, he's tired of me saying that things are in the "Lord's plan", and that I'm always nice to everyone. Before that he was completely quiet too. It was a side of him I've never seen, and I don't even know how I got him so angry like that. I have to tell you it was a bit frightening. Then again, he still walked me home even though he was steps ahead of me, so when he was in front of my house I thanked him for walking me home. However, I think that upset him more.

Today I didn't go to school because I had to see the doctor. The doctor needed to check up on me and see how ill I am now. It wasn't a pleasant visit either. I guess that I am getting worse because of the leukemia, but I feel as if nothing is wrong. Therefore, I'm going to pass in taking any pills for it. Throughout the whole day, i have to say I was thinking of Landon. I hope he feels much more better than he did the last time I had seen him all upset.

Three more days until the play!

Two more days!

After today, the main event of my life is going to come tomorrow! I am extremely ready, enlightened, and anxious to perform it. I will make my father proud of me. I just hope I don't cry on stage. I'm just kidding about that, I will stay focus to perform well for everyone. Wish me Luck Tomorrow! Bye.

Homecoming

Wow. My day was very surprising. Guess who asked me to homecoming...

LANDON!!!

I was shocked, but then I knew. I just knew that he wanted to by the way we were outside my house, and how he moved his chair towards the sun after running all the way to my house from school. I could tell because he was sweating intensely as soon as he arrived. It was adorable how he kept pausing and thinking how he can ask me to go with him, so I told him that I'd have to ask my father because he has to approve these things. However, I just decided to go with him, this is going to be one of my last moments here. Then he left as soon as I accepted. To be continued after homecoming...






Continuum.
Wow. Tonight was quite an exciting one. Well actually, it was intense because of everything that happened. One thing was I helped Landon get out of a fight with his ex-girlfriend's boyfriend, who put a little something in the punch that got everyone woozy. Then during that quarrel the girl decides to rush to the bathroom and puke everywhere! Landon, since he's such a nice guy, follows her to the restroom to help her, then clean it up. Therefore, I couldn't have him doing that by himself, so I knelled down to help him out. That's mainly the climax of the night, but before that we pretty much talked and danced around a little. However, I really enjoyed my time with Landon at homecoming. Yes, I know that the only reason he asked me was because of the fact he didn't have a date, and everyone else was taken, so he decided to have asked me. Plus, I figured this out all by myself. In the end, I'm glad to have approved of going with him. What an oddly, but amazing night. Oh, my father had asked why I smelled and loooked horrible as I got home, and I told him the entire story. He seemed to agree with me that he's nice, but he also said that Landon is stupid for staring at his ex-girlfriend in the first place. He told me that Landon should have just payed attention to the beautiful one that was right in front of him, and then I blushed. I love my father, he is such a wonderful man. Well, I'll write back soon. Bye.

Back To School

I'm back at school. These past couple of months have been great for me because I have forgotten about my illness for a while. Until I realised the date yesterday and remembered that my time is coming sooner than I thought. It is November now; the school play is coming up soon. Today the actors for each character have been cast. Not to brag about it, but I am the angel, of course. I was extremely delighted on that fact, and that my old schoolmate Landon was in the class. To make sure he understood that I knew he was there, I smiled at him. I'm pretty sure he got that memo because he seemed to notice me during class. Talking about Landon, I think he should be the one to play my father because I really don't want anyone else to pursue it. I'm not trying to be rude, but I believe that it's in the Lord's plan for him to act that role in the play. Oh, did I mention homecoming is coming up pretty soon? Well, it is; and once again no one has asked. I mean I don't expect anyone to, but since it's my last year to live and all--I would definitely appreciate having a date and going to homecoming. I'm not sure if that wish will come true, but I'm praying for that possibility. Plus, our new class president is Landon now! I was extremely happy for him--I voted for him. Well, that's it for now. Bye.

the News...

Today I went to the doctor, not sure of what they were going to tell me. I never really understood why I'm so fragile inside of me, but not out because I am strong. I know that it's in Lord's plan to have me diagnosed with leukemia. The kind with no cure, which means I am dying at this moment. It kills me inside, nice joke, that I'm suffering from this. However, I'm glad its me instead of someone else I care for, like my father. Oh, my father. He was devastated as the doctor was telling him what's really going on with me. Everyday, I pray for everyone, and now it's time I pray for myself. For now, I will go through with my short time left in this world as happy as I have ever been in my entire life. This year I will make Christmas the best I ever had, and I will play the role of the angel in my father's play the best from others in the past. I want my father to be proud of me, and that's the most important thing I want to do for him. Plus, I want him to know how much I love him everyday, so he will never forget and won't be hurt when that time comes.

I am definitely excited for tomorrow because I will be with the orphans. They don't know, and they won't know because I don't want them to suffer much as well, but maybe until I start to feel the side effects of leukemia. Hopefully, I'll be fine during that time because I'm scared. Scared is what I'm feeling right now; I don't appreciate it, but I'm in a situation of life and death. To tell you the truth, it frightens you so much that you can't believe it's happening like falling in love. Speaking of falling in love, it's something I dream of happening to me; however, I don't have a great chance of that happening. Me getting married? Now that's something impossible now, is it? Well yes, by the looks of it it is. My wish is to get married and walk down that aisle to meet my soon-to-be husband, and that's all I want. Well, I'm finished here; I'll write back as soon as possible. Goodbye.